As I pump my arms during a run,
I yearn to go farther.
faster.

As I open up a blank page,
I need to type thoughtful.
Inspiring.

As I stand in front of a bar,
I need to order a shot.
Tequilla.

As I think about the future,
I need to let it happen,
naturally.

I have adrenaline.
I have a momentum that keeps my head above the water.
I do not drown.

When all is said and done,
I know that I did not surrender,
I did not get brought down.
I fought against those that pushed me,
I am capable of success and I am capable of having my own,
future.

May 2009.
Here we all come.

(thats what she said) ;)

Dates to Ponder

Cabo San Lucas countdown: 1 week 4 days. One week until I am running on a beach and soaking up the sun in the best resort there...of course work will make me a slave from 1-7 pm..but I can deal.

Ryan and Lauren visit January 28th weekend... and stay with me in my closet. I would offer Whit's room, but with my coat and her in there, not so much room :)

Minneapolis..my birthday weekend. Seeing Stephen, bridesmaid dress shopping...

Feb 14th...my birthday celebration..a tad late.

March 3...New Orleans :) one week of ghosts, school touring, apartment searching, hurricane drinking, beignet eating, bookstore browsing fun...oh and replacing my taror cards...they were in an accident.

2 months til we are adults and free.........

tattoo tattoo tattoo I want you....(new song...likey?)

And So this is Christmas...

New Years approaches, and I am hoping that this year is just as good as last, minus the few hiccups it had. I want so much to go out and have fun on New Years Eve. I want the new year, to be healthy, happy, fun, and exciting. It is my last semester as a student and I so much want to live it up by going out more and not being serious. For the new year, I am promising myself that I won't let anyone get to me, I won't let sorority get to me, I will have fun with it all, because its the LAST time as a student....

It is sad really. I remember walking into my Simpson dorm room...it was bare and scary..this was my next step. I obvi took the bottom bunk...I was first :) Then unpacked my childhood into a place where I was now an adult. That year launched me into a spiraling cyclone of fun and outlandish behavior. I want my last semester to just as fun. I want to have Wings night, and Funk weekends, and go to bars in Wrigley and not worry about growing up...because we don't have much longer. We soon cannot be doing these things like we can now...so I want to live it up and live to the fullest...while not letting anyone's attitude, mood or rotten outlook get to me...it won't have time to reach me because I will be having too much fun to think about anything but being happy :)

I hope everyone can just let go this year, breath in, and jump in...and actually mean it. Not say they will do things, and then flake or back out. Everyone has a lot on their minds but really..nothing is as stressful as one makes it...and no one has that much homework they can't go out...drinks or no drinks involved. Being home has been reviving. I feel more alive. Before I came home I felt alone and like a stranger in my own home, for a few weeks. I want to return and not feel like that anymore. I won't feel like that again. I won't let anything make me feel anything but happy.

New Years with Tim, Tony, Amy, and their friends from home..maybs I know them...either way....5 hours drinks? i can say right now...shitshow shitshow shitshow times.

caught.

I caught myself,
I caught myself from falling into what you want me to be
I can longer be what you want
when I hardly know who I am

I push and pull in different directions
My head spins
My heart never wins

I am going down a one way street
falling to my feet
not in defeat.

I caught myself
I caught myself from believing I was what I wanted to be
I will no longer be what you want
because I will just be me.

wild & free,
♥ lora lee ♥

A sleepless night awakens me
I toss and turn
My feelings burn
Too dark out to see.

My dreams are vivid and fast
Life moving painfully slow.
I look up from down below,
Wanting something like this to last.

Caffeine is my dream's worst enemy,
Coffee is peace's foe.
Free falling from the tops of trees,
I'm ready, steady, go.

I look out the window for satisfaction,
Bundling up so my blankets cover.
I count the stars that hide the sun,
Wishing I had warmth from another.

The clock's hand shows tomorrow is not far away,
Full of promise and whimsical adventures,
I close my eyes and finally lay
Sleeping and dreaming of my lost treasures.

frozen rain.

The moon is on the rise,
wide awake
laying in your arms
listening to your lies.

City life full of dreams
everything is nothing
nothing is what it seems,
everyone schemes.

I catch a snowflake on my lash
they are not unique, just the same
Like all the rest, they melt away,
fade and never stay.

Cold and shivering
I hold on.
Finally at peace,
I release.


(sidenote: London, Chicago, San Diego, back home..what to do what to do....)

I have decided to get back into photography.

I miss it.

"Camera in Hand"

I want to travel the world with a camera in my hand,
I want to take pictures of mysterious foreign lands.
I want to change a mind with every picture that I take,
I want to put a smile on an interesting stranger's face.

I want to travel the world with a camera in my hand,
I want to travel the world without a single plans,
I want to create memories with every snap of the flash,
I want to be an inspiration and be a legend of the past.

I want to capture magical moments with every click of my lens,
I want to turn stranger's faces into passing friends.
I will travel the world with a camera in my hand.
I will take pictures of mysterious foreign lands.
I will live a life, that I was born to lead.
I will make all my dreams come true. I will indeed.

I write because it is what I do when I feel. I need to release happiness, loss, sadness, hope, love, dreams, etc. I also write when I am inspired to do so. Some poems, short stories, lyrics, and random thoughts, are just a way of releasing an emotion. One can never analyze and define what certain things mean or symbolize. Just take it as a piece of art. Take it as something of written beauty. Take it as it is......just words.