it has been awhile.

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sometimes i go with the swing of things,
roll with the punches,
make sure everyone is fine.

forget about my needs.
forget about what i wants.
forget that i come first.

my happiness is most important.
my words are my meditation.
my dreams are my escape.

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I feel like I was punched in the gut today. Out of nowhere I broke. There is so much pressure suffocating me, that I don't know how else to handle changes in plans, work, or school. I broke down today. He calmed me down as always. Why can't my inner thoughts and stresses just shut the fuck up and let me just live? I need a new job. I need more inspiration for writing. I need to get my life back.

Going out tonight when I know I probs shouldn't...whateves...I need to see faces other than Snookie's and Situation's on MTV.

peace.