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I really just want to quit.
Nothing is making sense
Nothing seems to fit.

I want to finally open my lungs and scream
I want to feel excited and alive
I want to share in someone's dream.

I want to be turned upside down
I want my world to be rocked
Spontaneously living in another town.

I want to leave a part of me behind
Searching for something that may not ever be found.
Confident in my own mind.

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As I pump my arms during a run,
I yearn to go farther.
faster.

As I open up a blank page,
I need to type thoughtful.
Inspiring.

As I stand in front of a bar,
I need to order a shot.
Tequilla.

As I think about the future,
I need to let it happen,
naturally.

I have adrenaline.
I have a momentum that keeps my head above the water.
I do not drown.

When all is said and done,
I know that I did not surrender,
I did not get brought down.
I fought against those that pushed me,
I am capable of success and I am capable of having my own,
future.

May 2009.
Here we all come.

(thats what she said) ;)